Hey everyone! Nothing too much has happened in the grand scheme of things, but I have a huge update on where I'm living! The major thing is that I'm not planning on going back to Seattle before I move to London, which was probably more than likely what was going to happen. Seattle is where I live and where I was living before I made my great escape over here to New Jersey. One of my very close friends is a girl named Paige, and she and I met at eating disorder treatment in Utah in the spring of 2015. We became very fast friends and we've been there for each other ever since.
She got married and her husband got accepted to a grad school in New York City, and they relocated there last year. I let her know when I got to New Jersey that I was in the area, and we quickly met up and I told her about my situation and what was happening, and she immediately offered me to stay with her and her husband in their apartment until April. I told her no, and I've since been at Airbnb's while getting message upon message from her, asking me to come stay with them and not spend so much money on rentals. I kept on telling her no, and I think it's because I'm so stubborn with so many things and so many people, but it got to the point where I didn't really want to spend money for days at a time and then going somewhere else, and then repeat the process until I leave.
So a few days ago, I packed up my cute little rental car and I drove through miles of dumb Pennsylvania (dumb because there was nothing there and I wasn't pleased) to this town in New York right near a river and right near a state park. I did some thinking and weighed a lot of pros and cons within a number of situations, and I finally got back to Paige and told her that I would finally take her up on her offer if it was still on the table. And it was! So I went back to the city of New York and here I am, smack in the middle of Manhattan until April. All things considered, I'm really happy with it. I'm finally in stable housing, and what's better is that I'm here rent free. I'm not helping out with that or with bills, but as long as I help with errand running like grocery shopping and walking their dog and taking care of their cat, I'm welcome here as long as I'd like.
I'm really blessed and really thankful that I do have people here in my corner. It's hard for me to trust people, no matter my relationship to them. It's hard to believe what people tell me. But I know that people more than likely do mean good. I'm thankful that I have people who do look out for me, even when I think they aren't. The latter half of the month I think has been a lot better than the first half, and that's mostly because of all the distractions I've let into my life. That doesn't mean that there aren't bad days, because I have the highest highs, but the lowest lows. Yesterday was one of those bad ones, and that's okay. I've been learning that it's okay to not be okay, and I've accepted that I won't always have good days.
What would life be like if it was all sunshine and rainbows, and no lessons to learn? Boring, that's what.
I love you all and I hope everyone reading this has a lovely day.
xo
Housing update
Tuesday, January 23, 2018
Hello, friends!
Are you like me and finding yourself in the midst of a really really difficult breakup? Fear no more, because I'm here for you! I really am. Breakups are freaking hard, and whoever says they aren't is in denial and their feelings will catch up with them, I promise. In my case, my boyfriend and I were together for three years, and that's a long time to be with someone. He went on his LDS mission and I stayed home (okay I was mostly at college) and waited around for his emails! It was such an awesome experience, and no, I regret absolutely none of it. In fact, if I could do it again, I would. In a heartbeat.
He came home in October 2016, and we had a great time not emailing once a week to each other. (: Of course there were good parts and bad parts, like any relationship, but like I said, I regret none of it. He's my best friend and I don't see that changing anytime soon. And yes, I love love his dumb guts. And I don't see that changing, either. What can I say. But the fallout of the breakup has really taken a bad toll on me. Too much time has passed and I can't remember when, but I packed most of the things I'll really need and hopped on a flight from Seattle to New York City, and I've been here ever since (see the cool map on my sidebar for where I am!), and I don't see myself leaving until April when I move to London for a couple months.
So I've done my fair share of reaching out to people for help (something I'm NOT used to doing), and I've compiled a list of things anyone can use to take care of yourself! We all need some self love, whether we know how to/remember to or not. You're just as important as your best friend is, and you wouldn't tell your best friend not to take care of themselves, right? Right.
Under the cut is a list of things my friends have given me and some things I thought of myself! I hope even one of these ideas helps you. Feel free to find me on Twitter or Instagram or drop me an email if you ever need to talk. x
Are you like me and finding yourself in the midst of a really really difficult breakup? Fear no more, because I'm here for you! I really am. Breakups are freaking hard, and whoever says they aren't is in denial and their feelings will catch up with them, I promise. In my case, my boyfriend and I were together for three years, and that's a long time to be with someone. He went on his LDS mission and I stayed home (okay I was mostly at college) and waited around for his emails! It was such an awesome experience, and no, I regret absolutely none of it. In fact, if I could do it again, I would. In a heartbeat.
He came home in October 2016, and we had a great time not emailing once a week to each other. (: Of course there were good parts and bad parts, like any relationship, but like I said, I regret none of it. He's my best friend and I don't see that changing anytime soon. And yes, I love love his dumb guts. And I don't see that changing, either. What can I say. But the fallout of the breakup has really taken a bad toll on me. Too much time has passed and I can't remember when, but I packed most of the things I'll really need and hopped on a flight from Seattle to New York City, and I've been here ever since (see the cool map on my sidebar for where I am!), and I don't see myself leaving until April when I move to London for a couple months.
So I've done my fair share of reaching out to people for help (something I'm NOT used to doing), and I've compiled a list of things anyone can use to take care of yourself! We all need some self love, whether we know how to/remember to or not. You're just as important as your best friend is, and you wouldn't tell your best friend not to take care of themselves, right? Right.
Under the cut is a list of things my friends have given me and some things I thought of myself! I hope even one of these ideas helps you. Feel free to find me on Twitter or Instagram or drop me an email if you ever need to talk. x
Wednesday, January 17, 2018
Hey! Do you want to be my friend? Check out this weirdo list of things about me you need to know about me if being friends is something you want to do. Honestly, don't worry about it, because absolutely no one wants to be my friend haha, but hey, I saw this somewhere and thought "oh hey, that would be cool to do as well!", so I am.
Also I'm pretty sure I'm going to be hitting you all with a new blog layout. It's long been time, and while I'll always have the file of this blog layout and the signature, the company that I bought the layout and custom signature from closed down late last year, and I'm in the market for a change. I'll be blogging about this later on this month (probably the next thing I post, really), but what I'm really in the market for is a change. I'll explain that also in the next post.
However, this post is going to be fun! Here are TEN things you need to know about me if you want to be friends with me.
+ I really love sports.
I'll probably watch any sport, but hot dang, do I love football, baseball, and football. Punters are my favorite players ever, be it college or NFL.
+ I might ghost on you, but I'll come back.
Sometimes I just drift off from people on my own, but I always do my best to reply to whoever talks to me. I love talking to people, but sometimes people shut the conversation down, and that can usually make me retreat from reaching out. Give me some time to warm up to things, and we'll laugh about memes and make inside jokes like we're childhood friends.
+ I'll probably only listen to Muse and Taylor Swift with you.
Unless I think of a really good indie band to listen to.
+ My three favorite albums of all time, in no order are:
-Trouble Will Find Me - The National
-Merriweather Post Pavilion - Animal Collective
-Red - Taylor Swift
+ I probably don't watch the same shows as you!
I've never watched This Is Us, Black Mirror, Parenthood, etc, and I don't plan to! I've watched half of the first season of Gilmore Girls before I stopped and it's been months since I turned it back on, so I'll probably have to re-re-rewatch it. I know. I've also watched maybe five episodes of Pretty Little Liars. Same thing with Gilmore Girls. Here's the thing you might be surprised about. I do NOT care about Stranger Things! I don't care about it! I've never watched it and I really honestly never will. However, great cast! I have a massive crush on Joe Keery, the kids are cute, and I love what MBB has been saying in the media!
Most of the shows I watch have pretty common factor. I watch Bones, NCIS, CSI, Castle, Grey's Anatomy, Doctor Who, and Anne with an E (I'm so excited for season two).
+ My favorite food is fruit.
I love all fruit, and my favorite are all the berries. Straw, rasp, blue, black, you name it, I like it. While my favorite food is fruit, I do also eat ice cream every single day and consider it a food group.
+ My favorite drink that isn't Cherry Coke is hot chocolate.
I will drink it even if it's 80 degrees outside. Plain chocolate is great, but I really love raspberry hot chocolate.
+ My favorite temple ever is the Newport Beach temple.
Honestly enough said. It's so pretty.
+ I've had paranormal experiences my whole life.
Let's talk about them sometime, and I'd love to hear yours if you have them!
+ My favorite smell is freshly washed sheets.
Seriously nothing like it.
Now that you're done reading this, we're automatically friends! Yay!
Also I'm pretty sure I'm going to be hitting you all with a new blog layout. It's long been time, and while I'll always have the file of this blog layout and the signature, the company that I bought the layout and custom signature from closed down late last year, and I'm in the market for a change. I'll be blogging about this later on this month (probably the next thing I post, really), but what I'm really in the market for is a change. I'll explain that also in the next post.
However, this post is going to be fun! Here are TEN things you need to know about me if you want to be friends with me.
+ I really love sports.
I'll probably watch any sport, but hot dang, do I love football, baseball, and football. Punters are my favorite players ever, be it college or NFL.
+ I might ghost on you, but I'll come back.
Sometimes I just drift off from people on my own, but I always do my best to reply to whoever talks to me. I love talking to people, but sometimes people shut the conversation down, and that can usually make me retreat from reaching out. Give me some time to warm up to things, and we'll laugh about memes and make inside jokes like we're childhood friends.
+ I'll probably only listen to Muse and Taylor Swift with you.
Unless I think of a really good indie band to listen to.
+ My three favorite albums of all time, in no order are:
-Trouble Will Find Me - The National
-Merriweather Post Pavilion - Animal Collective
-Red - Taylor Swift
+ I probably don't watch the same shows as you!
I've never watched This Is Us, Black Mirror, Parenthood, etc, and I don't plan to! I've watched half of the first season of Gilmore Girls before I stopped and it's been months since I turned it back on, so I'll probably have to re-re-rewatch it. I know. I've also watched maybe five episodes of Pretty Little Liars. Same thing with Gilmore Girls. Here's the thing you might be surprised about. I do NOT care about Stranger Things! I don't care about it! I've never watched it and I really honestly never will. However, great cast! I have a massive crush on Joe Keery, the kids are cute, and I love what MBB has been saying in the media!
Most of the shows I watch have pretty common factor. I watch Bones, NCIS, CSI, Castle, Grey's Anatomy, Doctor Who, and Anne with an E (I'm so excited for season two).
+ My favorite food is fruit.
I love all fruit, and my favorite are all the berries. Straw, rasp, blue, black, you name it, I like it. While my favorite food is fruit, I do also eat ice cream every single day and consider it a food group.
+ My favorite drink that isn't Cherry Coke is hot chocolate.
I will drink it even if it's 80 degrees outside. Plain chocolate is great, but I really love raspberry hot chocolate.
+ My favorite temple ever is the Newport Beach temple.
Honestly enough said. It's so pretty.
+ I've had paranormal experiences my whole life.
Let's talk about them sometime, and I'd love to hear yours if you have them!
+ My favorite smell is freshly washed sheets.
Seriously nothing like it.
Now that you're done reading this, we're automatically friends! Yay!
Friday, January 12, 2018
It's been a hot flippin MINUTE since I made a playlist post, and we're up in here talking about music and my favorite songs that I've been listening to not just in January, but the last couple months in general. I have an interesting music taste and I'll listen and like pretty much anything, from country to Disney to screamo to alt/rock. In which alt/rock, indie/folk, and lo-fi hip hop are definitely my favorite genres.
So here you go! I don't have links to them, but you can find all of these on Spotify at the very least. I use Spotify the most, and I definitely prefer it over Apple Music or the music I have on iTunes, or Soundcloud, or whatever people use these days.
Boyfriend - Best Coast
Bug - Wavves
The Way Life Goes (ft Oh Wonder) - Lil Uzi Vert
The Start Of Something - Voxtrot
Drag - Day Wave
Like or Like Like - Miniature Tigers
Menswear - The 1975
watch - Billie Eilish
Baby You're Out - Mac DeMarco
Up We Go - Lights
Anchor - Novo Amor
Annie - A R I Z O N A
I Don't Mind - Twerps
Tears & Laughter - Tall Tree 6ft Man
Set Free - Katie Gray
Sit Next to Me - Foster The People
12:51 - The Strokes
Finnerödja - Smoosh (now called Chaos Chaos)
Black Wax - Dananananaykroyd
There you go! Happy listening! Not listed is every Taylor Swift album, but assume they're in there as well.
So here you go! I don't have links to them, but you can find all of these on Spotify at the very least. I use Spotify the most, and I definitely prefer it over Apple Music or the music I have on iTunes, or Soundcloud, or whatever people use these days.
Boyfriend - Best Coast
Bug - Wavves
The Way Life Goes (ft Oh Wonder) - Lil Uzi Vert
The Start Of Something - Voxtrot
Drag - Day Wave
Like or Like Like - Miniature Tigers
Menswear - The 1975
watch - Billie Eilish
Baby You're Out - Mac DeMarco
Up We Go - Lights
Anchor - Novo Amor
Annie - A R I Z O N A
I Don't Mind - Twerps
Tears & Laughter - Tall Tree 6ft Man
Set Free - Katie Gray
Sit Next to Me - Foster The People
12:51 - The Strokes
Finnerödja - Smoosh (now called Chaos Chaos)
Black Wax - Dananananaykroyd
There you go! Happy listening! Not listed is every Taylor Swift album, but assume they're in there as well.
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