Hey everyone! Nothing too much has happened in the grand scheme of things, but I have a huge update on where I'm living! The major thing is that I'm not planning on going back to Seattle before I move to London, which was probably more than likely what was going to happen. Seattle is where I live and where I was living before I made my great escape over here to New Jersey. One of my very close friends is a girl named Paige, and she and I met at eating disorder treatment in Utah in the spring of 2015. We became very fast friends and we've been there for each other ever since.
She got married and her husband got accepted to a grad school in New York City, and they relocated there last year. I let her know when I got to New Jersey that I was in the area, and we quickly met up and I told her about my situation and what was happening, and she immediately offered me to stay with her and her husband in their apartment until April. I told her no, and I've since been at Airbnb's while getting message upon message from her, asking me to come stay with them and not spend so much money on rentals. I kept on telling her no, and I think it's because I'm so stubborn with so many things and so many people, but it got to the point where I didn't really want to spend money for days at a time and then going somewhere else, and then repeat the process until I leave.
So a few days ago, I packed up my cute little rental car and I drove through miles of dumb Pennsylvania (dumb because there was nothing there and I wasn't pleased) to this town in New York right near a river and right near a state park. I did some thinking and weighed a lot of pros and cons within a number of situations, and I finally got back to Paige and told her that I would finally take her up on her offer if it was still on the table. And it was! So I went back to the city of New York and here I am, smack in the middle of Manhattan until April. All things considered, I'm really happy with it. I'm finally in stable housing, and what's better is that I'm here rent free. I'm not helping out with that or with bills, but as long as I help with errand running like grocery shopping and walking their dog and taking care of their cat, I'm welcome here as long as I'd like.
I'm really blessed and really thankful that I do have people here in my corner. It's hard for me to trust people, no matter my relationship to them. It's hard to believe what people tell me. But I know that people more than likely do mean good. I'm thankful that I have people who do look out for me, even when I think they aren't. The latter half of the month I think has been a lot better than the first half, and that's mostly because of all the distractions I've let into my life. That doesn't mean that there aren't bad days, because I have the highest highs, but the lowest lows. Yesterday was one of those bad ones, and that's okay. I've been learning that it's okay to not be okay, and I've accepted that I won't always have good days.
What would life be like if it was all sunshine and rainbows, and no lessons to learn? Boring, that's what.
I love you all and I hope everyone reading this has a lovely day.
xo
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