It's been awhile, hasn't it? Well, here I am, blogging again after the crazy month that was December.
Real quick, today I went to the DOL to get a new license (I don't know about you, but I'm feeling twenty......one) and yesterday I bought new curtains. So you could say I'm being a real baller lately. Adult life, yo.
It's been a wild month! But I wouldn't have traded this month for anything, really. So much traveling and exploring and being with the best. I'm pretty happy. Also can we take a minute to talk about how awesome I think it is that I kept this blog for an entire year? I never thought I would keep this going, because I have that private one that I thought I would write in more. Totally the other way around. I've blogged more in this one than that one.
Inneresting.
Fun fact, it was my birthday on the 22nd. I'm TWENNY WAN. Crazy.
So this is the time of month and the time of year when people reflect on their year and how it's treated them. Since I'm basic, I thought I'd do the same. Although, it may be a total 180 from how 2015 treated everyone else.
2015 has honestly been one of the GREATEST years of my life. I truly think this because I went into this year with absolutely zero expectations. I can't remember my actual train of thought, but it probably went a little something like "Okay, woo 2015. I'm not setting any goals for myself other than to shape up and do things for me".
And I did exactly that.
I made 2015 THE MOST selfish year I could. I did everything I wanted to do. I did things for myself, by myself. I learned so much about myself and how I worked and less about other people. I was selfish and stopped putting other people before me. I put myself first and worked on me. And it's showed.
I friend broke up with a lot of people because they were holding me back. I have no ill will to those people and I wish them the best in life. I just had to do me and there is absolutely nothing wrong about that. I have no regrets. I also think that I regret nothing I've done this year.
I focused on my health, specifically my eating habits, weight, and body image.
Am I totally better? No. I'm never going to be 100% better, but I'm stronger and I'm thriving. I'm healthier and that's led me to be happier.
In 2016, I'll possibly focus more on my mental health.
I make no promises to the things I'll do in 2016. I have no resolutions, because I know I'll break them if I make them.
The Lily now is so different from the Lily in December 2014. Lily back then was afraid of everything and let people walk all over her. Lily now knows how the world works and how to not let things get her down. She can tell people "no" without feeling bad. She can conquer anything and anyone. She won't let anyone get in her way.
Essentially, she's a boss bitch.
(and she loves it)
I can't imagine how many numbers I've blocked in my phone this last year. And the number of conversations I've deleted is so unfathomable. And that's good. The toxic people who were in my life will not come back into my life. They're gone and gone for good.
You can't just walk back into my life after a year and think things are automatically great. Because they aren't. A year does a lot to a person and I'm not who I was a year ago. None of us are who we were last year. Things change and you adapt to them.
I've done so much changing and I regret none of it. I'm happier than I was and I'm healthier than I was. 2015 was good.
I can't predict what 2016 has, but I'm leaving 2015 as a better person.
Love you guys.
xoxoxo
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