To start out, I really don't like introductory blog posts. I honestly don't. They're usually all the same thing ("Hey, I'm Lily! I'm twenty* years old and I live in Utah!") and pretty... generic.
But at the same time.. I really like them. They're also sometimes raw. I relate them in a sense to someone's first vlog post if vlogging and YouTubing is someone's way of going at getting things out in the open. They're so real and they haven't discovered how to edit anything (another reason why I could never vlog. I'd have to edit out all my "uh's" and "um's", etc) but at the same time, isn't that what makes it more real? Like you can almost feel how nervous they are (if they are).
It's impressive.
So here's a small "introduction" that will probably be generic, but hey. It's something. Actually.. no. It's basically a background story of how this came to be. But you can also call that an introduction.
Most people probably already have a general knowing and understanding of me, so I can spare most of the background stuff. If anyone has questions, I have hella links in the sidebar. They're actually social media icons that I purchased on Etsy for a small price. I really like blogging. Blogging is a really good output for me. I had been in therapy for awhile and I was writing in journals (I still write in a journal every day, my goodness you should see all my journals) but I still wasn't putting out what I wanted to get across. My therapist (he was seriously so awesome) suggested that I try a blog. I told him that I had a Tumblr blog which I used to post happy things to keep me happy and that I would make text posts on it.
He told me that making a blog could perhaps help me get across what I wanted. And almost three years later, here I am still blogging. Granted, that's the blog I keep private (every time I say "blog" or "blogging" in this post, take a shot) and don't show anyone. I have a lot of stuff on that thing. A lot of hurt and heartbreak and all around bad. But there's also a ton of good things, especially right now with how things in my life are going. It's not all bad. But it's not all good. People on Tumblr sometimes ask about that blog, and I tell them that it's for my eyes only because it's essentially an online journal that's very very locked down and private.
But I wanted a blog that I could let others see; maybe to cut down on text post making on Tumblr (lol jk I'll always make text posts on Tumblr, don't let that fool you) so I started this after I got to thinking about it in the summertime, rightabouts. I had originally created an actual Facebook page for that blog (the private one) and very soon after that, I thought "no, Lily. Don't do that. Don't let people see all that private stuff. Those words are words that not everyone needs to see on a daily basis. Don't do it". So I never let that Facebook page go out (it's still on my actual Facebook because I don't know how to get rid of it) and a little while later, I fixed the privacy settings on it so NO ONE can see it now except for me.
It took a lot of weighing options for me to decide to public blog, but here's the finished result. It's not the cutest blog in the world, but it'll do. It's simple. It's not ugly. But it's okay. Nothing is perfect.
* = I had originally put down 'nineteen' instead of 'twenty' because I'm still getting used to the fact that I am twenty..... almost a month later. #old
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