Hi, everyone.
There's been a lot of things happening in my life lately that I'm sure a lot of people are confused about. I think people on Instagram know, but I don't know if a lot of people outside of those people know too much unless I told them. And honestly, not everyone there knows.
I was very brief for a few reasons.
1. I didn't know what I felt comfortable sharing and omitting.
2. Not everyone needs to know everything.
3. I was (and still am) processing a lot.
But I hope that this clears a lot of things up. Please be kind.
Why She Disappeared
Monday, September 3, 2018
Hi everyone! I'm back from being away and in that time, I got married! It was gorgeous and amazing and perfect, and I wouldn't have wanted it to go any differently. Married life is the best and I wouldn't want to go through it with anyone else, so I'm really happy that I was able to meet Josh when I did, even though I hated the idea of dating anyone at all when I was going through what I was.
I think I touched it on a previous blog post, but I've always been wanting to adopt, and now that dream is finally starting to become a reality! Josh loves the idea of adopting and I'm thankful that someone else shares my love of adoption. I knew going into this whole entire adoption process that I should leave it all in God's hands and to keep praying to figure out when the time would be right... as antsy as I was (and still am).
We've FINALLY been blessed with some answers lately, and while I've been documenting them, I thought it would also be nice to document our journey in blog posts, so I polled my Instagram followers and the overwhelming vote was to blog about it, so here I am! Read on to find out all that's going on! xo
I think I touched it on a previous blog post, but I've always been wanting to adopt, and now that dream is finally starting to become a reality! Josh loves the idea of adopting and I'm thankful that someone else shares my love of adoption. I knew going into this whole entire adoption process that I should leave it all in God's hands and to keep praying to figure out when the time would be right... as antsy as I was (and still am).
We've FINALLY been blessed with some answers lately, and while I've been documenting them, I thought it would also be nice to document our journey in blog posts, so I polled my Instagram followers and the overwhelming vote was to blog about it, so here I am! Read on to find out all that's going on! xo
Monday, May 21, 2018
Hey everyone!
It's been a week exactly since I've been back home in the Seattle area, and I'm happy that I'm able to sleep in my own bed in my own room! Yes, this is the same room I had to clean awhile ago. I'm not sad about it anymore though, so ha! Now that I've had some time to come down from spending almost two weeks driving across the country, I've also had that time to remember what it was that we listened to! We drove a U Haul from Washington to Washington because furniture wouldn't fit in his car plus all the other things he had. What we couldn't put in his car was put in there, and when I mean "we", I mean Josh and his friends put everything in the U Haul and I was sitting on the floor watching basketball.
U Hauls, fun fact, are really only equipped with radio, or at least that's what ours has. The good ole' AM/FM standard, but it has that area where you can plug in an adapter into the lighter to plug your phone into, so that's how we get music that way. It's pretty ghetto, and it definitely makes me miss driving an actual car (hint hint) that I can just plug in and listen to Spotify. But this experience also let me figure out what kind of music Josh likes, and he actually likes a couple specific genres, unlike me, who can listen to just about anything and everything.
More than music though, we've also been listening to audiobooks. Pre-trip, I couldn't stand audiobooks. I love books, but I love physical books that I can hold in my hands and smell that book smell. I don't like Kindle or Nook version of books, and I honestly would space out and not listen to audiobooks. Josh brought audiobooks up before we even left, and I told him that I wasn't the biggest fan of them, whereas I think he's the biggest fan of them I know. He's got Audible (this isn't sponsored, but you can get a month free trial right off the bat. Hey Amazon, sponsor your girl) and convinced me to at least think about it.
SO. This post is going to be about the music and audiobooks that we listened to! I ran a poll on my Instagram awhile ago asking if anyone wanted a post also about books, and the majority wanted to read about the books we listened to along with music, so I'm going to combine posts! So if you want music or books OR both, read on!
It's been a week exactly since I've been back home in the Seattle area, and I'm happy that I'm able to sleep in my own bed in my own room! Yes, this is the same room I had to clean awhile ago. I'm not sad about it anymore though, so ha! Now that I've had some time to come down from spending almost two weeks driving across the country, I've also had that time to remember what it was that we listened to! We drove a U Haul from Washington to Washington because furniture wouldn't fit in his car plus all the other things he had. What we couldn't put in his car was put in there, and when I mean "we", I mean Josh and his friends put everything in the U Haul and I was sitting on the floor watching basketball.
U Hauls, fun fact, are really only equipped with radio, or at least that's what ours has. The good ole' AM/FM standard, but it has that area where you can plug in an adapter into the lighter to plug your phone into, so that's how we get music that way. It's pretty ghetto, and it definitely makes me miss driving an actual car (hint hint) that I can just plug in and listen to Spotify. But this experience also let me figure out what kind of music Josh likes, and he actually likes a couple specific genres, unlike me, who can listen to just about anything and everything.
More than music though, we've also been listening to audiobooks. Pre-trip, I couldn't stand audiobooks. I love books, but I love physical books that I can hold in my hands and smell that book smell. I don't like Kindle or Nook version of books, and I honestly would space out and not listen to audiobooks. Josh brought audiobooks up before we even left, and I told him that I wasn't the biggest fan of them, whereas I think he's the biggest fan of them I know. He's got Audible (this isn't sponsored, but you can get a month free trial right off the bat. Hey Amazon, sponsor your girl) and convinced me to at least think about it.
SO. This post is going to be about the music and audiobooks that we listened to! I ran a poll on my Instagram awhile ago asking if anyone wanted a post also about books, and the majority wanted to read about the books we listened to along with music, so I'm going to combine posts! So if you want music or books OR both, read on!
Sunday, May 6, 2018
Hi, everyone! If you missed it, I got engaged! On April 26, 2018 to be exact. And it was the greatest most amazing moment of the last several years of my life, and I'm so so happy I get to be with this kid for the rest of my life (okay, he's not a kid - he's twenty six haha). So I of course had to take some time to write out a blog post all about him! And how we met, how we got engaged, etc. If you know me, you know that we moved very quickly in this relationship and some people say we're taking things too quickly! It's pretty laughable, honestly, like... let me be happy, people! I'm not hurting anyone by being happy, and I hope people truly understand that.
And that's an important thing to know, that I'm happy. You guys, I'm really happy. For the first time in a long time, I don't remember what my life is like being in a massive depression spiral. I don't remember what it's like to sob so hard, my throat is raw and my eyes are out of tears. I don't remember what it's like to constantly want to look perfect for someone else. I don't remember what it's like to be sad. I don't remember what my life is like being constantly anxious. And I know there will come days where I am in a massive depression spiral. I know there will come days where I can't get out of bed because life is so heavy and unable for me to bear. I know there will come days where I'll have an anxiety attack so major, I can't breathe.
But for now: I'm happy. Click through the read more to read about aaall the mushy love stuff!
And that's an important thing to know, that I'm happy. You guys, I'm really happy. For the first time in a long time, I don't remember what my life is like being in a massive depression spiral. I don't remember what it's like to sob so hard, my throat is raw and my eyes are out of tears. I don't remember what it's like to constantly want to look perfect for someone else. I don't remember what it's like to be sad. I don't remember what my life is like being constantly anxious. And I know there will come days where I am in a massive depression spiral. I know there will come days where I can't get out of bed because life is so heavy and unable for me to bear. I know there will come days where I'll have an anxiety attack so major, I can't breathe.
But for now: I'm happy. Click through the read more to read about aaall the mushy love stuff!
Tuesday, April 17, 2018
Hey everyone!
Recently, I've been getting some messages on Tumblr or a DM or two on Instagram or someone asking me to my face how I'm able to travel so often! I use the generic answer of "I find really cheap flights and I have two amazing, well paying jobs". But since I'm currently in London (for work - literally), I thought I would share some specific details. I'll break it down a little so it makes some more sense.
Recently, I've been getting some messages on Tumblr or a DM or two on Instagram or someone asking me to my face how I'm able to travel so often! I use the generic answer of "I find really cheap flights and I have two amazing, well paying jobs". But since I'm currently in London (for work - literally), I thought I would share some specific details. I'll break it down a little so it makes some more sense.
Tuesday, April 10, 2018
Hey everyone! I'm in London! How awesome is that? Stay up to date on my Instagram if you're not coming from that way. I generally always link blog posts to my Instagram story, but I also link onto my Tumblr and Twitter. I post pictures on Instagram every day, so stay updated on there if you'd like! Because my flight was almost eight hours from Washington, DC, I listening to more music than I normally do, and I'm going to list those songs as the ones I'm listening to in April! I lived in Lithuania for a few months last year, and I had a ton of free time, and I used that free time to travel all around Europe, but I won't have as much free time as I did last year, which means less music listening. That's alright, though! Click the read more link to get some new tunes!
My next blog post will be all about how I'm able to afford to travel all around! I know people may be interested, so stay tuned for that!
x
My next blog post will be all about how I'm able to afford to travel all around! I know people may be interested, so stay tuned for that!
x
Monday, March 19, 2018
Time for another life update! If you're here to look at my March Music playlist, then feel free to ignore all of this and scroll down to the end. I'm not here to make you read anything you don't want to haha.
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Things have been pretty hectic lately! I've been traveling here and there, and I'm at my mom's house in Washington after two months when I just up and left for NewYork Jersey. I was in Utah for a couple (literally two) days and I could start to feel that dreadful feeling that you get in the pit of your stomach. It's like when you have butterflies, but not the good kind. The whole time I was in Utah, I was of course happy to be back there, but I was filled with that feeling, knowing that I was going to go back to Washington and have to be filled with memories I've been spending two months trying to push into the back of my mind.
Two months ago, I was sitting at my mom's house in Washington, playing a Nancy Drew game on my computer and watching Bones on the TV for some background noise. I knew exactly which frame in my game I was at and I remember which episode of Bones I was watching. I was treating myself because I had to make a phone call, and my anxiety was AWFUL. It wasn't really the best day for me, but I was trying to make it better by playing a game and putting my show on for the background. It was going pretty well, and I got a message from my boyfriend. I (think) told him about how blah my day was and how I wasn't really the happiest on this day of days, and he said he had to talk to me about something important, and I said to just tell me what he needed to tell me because it couldn't possibly get worse.
Boy was I wrong. Because he broke up with me.
And I remember not caring about my game or my show, and I was in a haze. And then when it sunk in, I remember crying harder than I have in a long time. It was the typical thing you see in one of those teenage coming of age movies; there were tissues covering my bed and the floor, just COVERED in tissues. My bed was unmade (although by default, I HATE made beds and I love messy unmade beds - save your comments about how I should probably make my bed) and honestly, my TV was probably still on. There were going to be clothes everywhere because it's not like I really knew what I was doing when I went to New Jersey.
I didn't want to come back here and seeing my room in that state, and I knew better than to think that my mom cleaned my room. And surprise, I came back home, stalled going into my room, and I finally went in and it was exactly how it was when I left it. I was right. My bed was messy and unmade. There were tissues all over. There were clothes everywhere. My TV was off though, which kind of made me smirk. And I knew what I had to do.
I started to clean up. In went every tissue. In went wrappers of various stuff I ate and thought I threw away. In went all the bad memories. And of course I cried while doing that. It was hard to see the aftermath of a breakup, but I have to keep going.
And I am. I have been. After I threw away all the garbage, I took my trash out, dusted, made a half ass attempt at making my bed, put my clothes away, started laundry (that I finished today), and today I vacuumed. I didn't take before and after pictures, but that's okay. I don't need a before picture to remind me what my mental state was in the middle of January 2018. I've learned so much in the last two months, mostly that life isn't always rainbows. You're not going to have great days every single day. You're allowed to mourn a breakup for two months because it meant so much to you. You're allowed to make a mess in your room. You're allowed to cry. You're allowed to turn down a date because you don't feel like enough time has passed. You're allowed to hang out with someone and rearrange their words so you won't feel like you're on a date because of the aforementioned reason. You're allowed to feel.
My room looks pretty good now, I'll say. I spent some of this morning in my bed binging Supermarket Sweep on Amazon Prime and once in awhile, I would look around my room and notice how clean it was and how different the vibe was from when I walked in for the first time in awhile. I talked to my mom about it and she said she never went in it one time, not even to clean it (do I know my mom or do I know my mom?). I thought about how different my life is.
And now, here I am. Working on getting through things the best I can. It got to the point where I was so worried about how I was treating myself that I went out and adopted a cat just to keep myself mentally stable. He's got some Munchkin and Scottish Fold in him and I'm 100% convinced that he's related to Taylor Swift's cats even though he looks more Munchkin than anything. He didn't have a name when I got him, so I named him Mookie. Yes, after the baseball player. So he's helped a lot, that's for sure. It really goes to show that animals can help you! Haha no, he's not a service cat or anything like that, but he's very fluffy and sweet and adorable and loves to do that thing where he rubs his head against your leg.
I'm only here for a couple more days though, because then I'm going to Louisiana for an event that's going on, and that'll be fun. Then I'll be back in New York (not New Jersey) and THEN I'll be in London! I'm definitely looking forward to all the things I'm going to be doing this year and honestly, the next couple of years. I think it's going to be a drastic change from the last couple of years, and I need that! I've spent too much time being sad and depressed and mentally ill, and it's time to change 2/3 of that (let's be real, I'll never not be mentally ill haha). It's time to treat myself with the love and respect I deserve. It's time to grow. It's time to keep going. It's time to clean my room.
If anyone is still here with me, here's a virtual high five! You're awesome. As a reward, here's a playlist of the things I'm currently listening to. As always, you can find all of these songs on Spotify! Enjoy.
Cry Me A River - Justin Timberlake
The Lucky One - Taylor Swift
Suga Suga - Baby Bash
Zeal (feat Henry Seeley) - The Belonging Co
The Funeral - Band of Horses
Electric Love - BØRNS
Carry You - Novo Amor
Talk! - The 1975
God's Plan - Drake
There you go! Happy listening if you need some new tunes. <3
xo
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Things have been pretty hectic lately! I've been traveling here and there, and I'm at my mom's house in Washington after two months when I just up and left for New
Two months ago, I was sitting at my mom's house in Washington, playing a Nancy Drew game on my computer and watching Bones on the TV for some background noise. I knew exactly which frame in my game I was at and I remember which episode of Bones I was watching. I was treating myself because I had to make a phone call, and my anxiety was AWFUL. It wasn't really the best day for me, but I was trying to make it better by playing a game and putting my show on for the background. It was going pretty well, and I got a message from my boyfriend. I (think) told him about how blah my day was and how I wasn't really the happiest on this day of days, and he said he had to talk to me about something important, and I said to just tell me what he needed to tell me because it couldn't possibly get worse.
Boy was I wrong. Because he broke up with me.
And I remember not caring about my game or my show, and I was in a haze. And then when it sunk in, I remember crying harder than I have in a long time. It was the typical thing you see in one of those teenage coming of age movies; there were tissues covering my bed and the floor, just COVERED in tissues. My bed was unmade (although by default, I HATE made beds and I love messy unmade beds - save your comments about how I should probably make my bed) and honestly, my TV was probably still on. There were going to be clothes everywhere because it's not like I really knew what I was doing when I went to New Jersey.
I didn't want to come back here and seeing my room in that state, and I knew better than to think that my mom cleaned my room. And surprise, I came back home, stalled going into my room, and I finally went in and it was exactly how it was when I left it. I was right. My bed was messy and unmade. There were tissues all over. There were clothes everywhere. My TV was off though, which kind of made me smirk. And I knew what I had to do.
I started to clean up. In went every tissue. In went wrappers of various stuff I ate and thought I threw away. In went all the bad memories. And of course I cried while doing that. It was hard to see the aftermath of a breakup, but I have to keep going.
If you're going through hell, keep going.
And I am. I have been. After I threw away all the garbage, I took my trash out, dusted, made a half ass attempt at making my bed, put my clothes away, started laundry (that I finished today), and today I vacuumed. I didn't take before and after pictures, but that's okay. I don't need a before picture to remind me what my mental state was in the middle of January 2018. I've learned so much in the last two months, mostly that life isn't always rainbows. You're not going to have great days every single day. You're allowed to mourn a breakup for two months because it meant so much to you. You're allowed to make a mess in your room. You're allowed to cry. You're allowed to turn down a date because you don't feel like enough time has passed. You're allowed to hang out with someone and rearrange their words so you won't feel like you're on a date because of the aforementioned reason. You're allowed to feel.
My room looks pretty good now, I'll say. I spent some of this morning in my bed binging Supermarket Sweep on Amazon Prime and once in awhile, I would look around my room and notice how clean it was and how different the vibe was from when I walked in for the first time in awhile. I talked to my mom about it and she said she never went in it one time, not even to clean it (do I know my mom or do I know my mom?). I thought about how different my life is.
And now, here I am. Working on getting through things the best I can. It got to the point where I was so worried about how I was treating myself that I went out and adopted a cat just to keep myself mentally stable. He's got some Munchkin and Scottish Fold in him and I'm 100% convinced that he's related to Taylor Swift's cats even though he looks more Munchkin than anything. He didn't have a name when I got him, so I named him Mookie. Yes, after the baseball player. So he's helped a lot, that's for sure. It really goes to show that animals can help you! Haha no, he's not a service cat or anything like that, but he's very fluffy and sweet and adorable and loves to do that thing where he rubs his head against your leg.
I'm only here for a couple more days though, because then I'm going to Louisiana for an event that's going on, and that'll be fun. Then I'll be back in New York (not New Jersey) and THEN I'll be in London! I'm definitely looking forward to all the things I'm going to be doing this year and honestly, the next couple of years. I think it's going to be a drastic change from the last couple of years, and I need that! I've spent too much time being sad and depressed and mentally ill, and it's time to change 2/3 of that (let's be real, I'll never not be mentally ill haha). It's time to treat myself with the love and respect I deserve. It's time to grow. It's time to keep going. It's time to clean my room.
If anyone is still here with me, here's a virtual high five! You're awesome. As a reward, here's a playlist of the things I'm currently listening to. As always, you can find all of these songs on Spotify! Enjoy.
Cry Me A River - Justin Timberlake
The Lucky One - Taylor Swift
Suga Suga - Baby Bash
Zeal (feat Henry Seeley) - The Belonging Co
The Funeral - Band of Horses
Electric Love - BØRNS
Carry You - Novo Amor
Talk! - The 1975
God's Plan - Drake
There you go! Happy listening if you need some new tunes. <3
xo
Monday, February 12, 2018
Hey! I'm here with another playlist of songs I've been listening to these days. I'm not really listening to a ton of new music, mostly because I've been watching the Olympics and Celebrity Big Brother and eating ice cream (the life, right?), so I might not have a list as great as last month's, but that's okay! All of these songs are on Spotify at least, because that's what I use for my music.
If It's Lovin' That You Want - Rihanna
Be OK - Ingrid Michaelson
Will Do - TV On The Radio
Blame It on Me - George Ezra
Bloodbuzz Ohio - The National
I Love You - Said The Whale
Melody Calling - The Vaccines
Boston - Augustana
Going Gets Tough - The Growlers
Threat of Joy - The Strokes
Sit Next to Me - Foster The People
Current Location - LANY
At The Bottom - Brand New
There we go! I'll see you next month for my March jams! I hope everyone reading this has a great week.
xo
If It's Lovin' That You Want - Rihanna
Be OK - Ingrid Michaelson
Will Do - TV On The Radio
Blame It on Me - George Ezra
Bloodbuzz Ohio - The National
I Love You - Said The Whale
Melody Calling - The Vaccines
Boston - Augustana
Going Gets Tough - The Growlers
Threat of Joy - The Strokes
Sit Next to Me - Foster The People
Current Location - LANY
At The Bottom - Brand New
There we go! I'll see you next month for my March jams! I hope everyone reading this has a great week.
xo
Tuesday, January 30, 2018
Hey everyone! Nothing too much has happened in the grand scheme of things, but I have a huge update on where I'm living! The major thing is that I'm not planning on going back to Seattle before I move to London, which was probably more than likely what was going to happen. Seattle is where I live and where I was living before I made my great escape over here to New Jersey. One of my very close friends is a girl named Paige, and she and I met at eating disorder treatment in Utah in the spring of 2015. We became very fast friends and we've been there for each other ever since.
She got married and her husband got accepted to a grad school in New York City, and they relocated there last year. I let her know when I got to New Jersey that I was in the area, and we quickly met up and I told her about my situation and what was happening, and she immediately offered me to stay with her and her husband in their apartment until April. I told her no, and I've since been at Airbnb's while getting message upon message from her, asking me to come stay with them and not spend so much money on rentals. I kept on telling her no, and I think it's because I'm so stubborn with so many things and so many people, but it got to the point where I didn't really want to spend money for days at a time and then going somewhere else, and then repeat the process until I leave.
So a few days ago, I packed up my cute little rental car and I drove through miles of dumb Pennsylvania (dumb because there was nothing there and I wasn't pleased) to this town in New York right near a river and right near a state park. I did some thinking and weighed a lot of pros and cons within a number of situations, and I finally got back to Paige and told her that I would finally take her up on her offer if it was still on the table. And it was! So I went back to the city of New York and here I am, smack in the middle of Manhattan until April. All things considered, I'm really happy with it. I'm finally in stable housing, and what's better is that I'm here rent free. I'm not helping out with that or with bills, but as long as I help with errand running like grocery shopping and walking their dog and taking care of their cat, I'm welcome here as long as I'd like.
I'm really blessed and really thankful that I do have people here in my corner. It's hard for me to trust people, no matter my relationship to them. It's hard to believe what people tell me. But I know that people more than likely do mean good. I'm thankful that I have people who do look out for me, even when I think they aren't. The latter half of the month I think has been a lot better than the first half, and that's mostly because of all the distractions I've let into my life. That doesn't mean that there aren't bad days, because I have the highest highs, but the lowest lows. Yesterday was one of those bad ones, and that's okay. I've been learning that it's okay to not be okay, and I've accepted that I won't always have good days.
What would life be like if it was all sunshine and rainbows, and no lessons to learn? Boring, that's what.
I love you all and I hope everyone reading this has a lovely day.
xo
She got married and her husband got accepted to a grad school in New York City, and they relocated there last year. I let her know when I got to New Jersey that I was in the area, and we quickly met up and I told her about my situation and what was happening, and she immediately offered me to stay with her and her husband in their apartment until April. I told her no, and I've since been at Airbnb's while getting message upon message from her, asking me to come stay with them and not spend so much money on rentals. I kept on telling her no, and I think it's because I'm so stubborn with so many things and so many people, but it got to the point where I didn't really want to spend money for days at a time and then going somewhere else, and then repeat the process until I leave.
So a few days ago, I packed up my cute little rental car and I drove through miles of dumb Pennsylvania (dumb because there was nothing there and I wasn't pleased) to this town in New York right near a river and right near a state park. I did some thinking and weighed a lot of pros and cons within a number of situations, and I finally got back to Paige and told her that I would finally take her up on her offer if it was still on the table. And it was! So I went back to the city of New York and here I am, smack in the middle of Manhattan until April. All things considered, I'm really happy with it. I'm finally in stable housing, and what's better is that I'm here rent free. I'm not helping out with that or with bills, but as long as I help with errand running like grocery shopping and walking their dog and taking care of their cat, I'm welcome here as long as I'd like.
I'm really blessed and really thankful that I do have people here in my corner. It's hard for me to trust people, no matter my relationship to them. It's hard to believe what people tell me. But I know that people more than likely do mean good. I'm thankful that I have people who do look out for me, even when I think they aren't. The latter half of the month I think has been a lot better than the first half, and that's mostly because of all the distractions I've let into my life. That doesn't mean that there aren't bad days, because I have the highest highs, but the lowest lows. Yesterday was one of those bad ones, and that's okay. I've been learning that it's okay to not be okay, and I've accepted that I won't always have good days.
What would life be like if it was all sunshine and rainbows, and no lessons to learn? Boring, that's what.
I love you all and I hope everyone reading this has a lovely day.
xo
Tuesday, January 23, 2018
Hello, friends!
Are you like me and finding yourself in the midst of a really really difficult breakup? Fear no more, because I'm here for you! I really am. Breakups are freaking hard, and whoever says they aren't is in denial and their feelings will catch up with them, I promise. In my case, my boyfriend and I were together for three years, and that's a long time to be with someone. He went on his LDS mission and I stayed home (okay I was mostly at college) and waited around for his emails! It was such an awesome experience, and no, I regret absolutely none of it. In fact, if I could do it again, I would. In a heartbeat.
He came home in October 2016, and we had a great time not emailing once a week to each other. (: Of course there were good parts and bad parts, like any relationship, but like I said, I regret none of it. He's my best friend and I don't see that changing anytime soon. And yes, I love love his dumb guts. And I don't see that changing, either. What can I say. But the fallout of the breakup has really taken a bad toll on me. Too much time has passed and I can't remember when, but I packed most of the things I'll really need and hopped on a flight from Seattle to New York City, and I've been here ever since (see the cool map on my sidebar for where I am!), and I don't see myself leaving until April when I move to London for a couple months.
So I've done my fair share of reaching out to people for help (something I'm NOT used to doing), and I've compiled a list of things anyone can use to take care of yourself! We all need some self love, whether we know how to/remember to or not. You're just as important as your best friend is, and you wouldn't tell your best friend not to take care of themselves, right? Right.
Under the cut is a list of things my friends have given me and some things I thought of myself! I hope even one of these ideas helps you. Feel free to find me on Twitter or Instagram or drop me an email if you ever need to talk. x
Are you like me and finding yourself in the midst of a really really difficult breakup? Fear no more, because I'm here for you! I really am. Breakups are freaking hard, and whoever says they aren't is in denial and their feelings will catch up with them, I promise. In my case, my boyfriend and I were together for three years, and that's a long time to be with someone. He went on his LDS mission and I stayed home (okay I was mostly at college) and waited around for his emails! It was such an awesome experience, and no, I regret absolutely none of it. In fact, if I could do it again, I would. In a heartbeat.
He came home in October 2016, and we had a great time not emailing once a week to each other. (: Of course there were good parts and bad parts, like any relationship, but like I said, I regret none of it. He's my best friend and I don't see that changing anytime soon. And yes, I love love his dumb guts. And I don't see that changing, either. What can I say. But the fallout of the breakup has really taken a bad toll on me. Too much time has passed and I can't remember when, but I packed most of the things I'll really need and hopped on a flight from Seattle to New York City, and I've been here ever since (see the cool map on my sidebar for where I am!), and I don't see myself leaving until April when I move to London for a couple months.
So I've done my fair share of reaching out to people for help (something I'm NOT used to doing), and I've compiled a list of things anyone can use to take care of yourself! We all need some self love, whether we know how to/remember to or not. You're just as important as your best friend is, and you wouldn't tell your best friend not to take care of themselves, right? Right.
Under the cut is a list of things my friends have given me and some things I thought of myself! I hope even one of these ideas helps you. Feel free to find me on Twitter or Instagram or drop me an email if you ever need to talk. x
Wednesday, January 17, 2018
Hey! Do you want to be my friend? Check out this weirdo list of things about me you need to know about me if being friends is something you want to do. Honestly, don't worry about it, because absolutely no one wants to be my friend haha, but hey, I saw this somewhere and thought "oh hey, that would be cool to do as well!", so I am.
Also I'm pretty sure I'm going to be hitting you all with a new blog layout. It's long been time, and while I'll always have the file of this blog layout and the signature, the company that I bought the layout and custom signature from closed down late last year, and I'm in the market for a change. I'll be blogging about this later on this month (probably the next thing I post, really), but what I'm really in the market for is a change. I'll explain that also in the next post.
However, this post is going to be fun! Here are TEN things you need to know about me if you want to be friends with me.
+ I really love sports.
I'll probably watch any sport, but hot dang, do I love football, baseball, and football. Punters are my favorite players ever, be it college or NFL.
+ I might ghost on you, but I'll come back.
Sometimes I just drift off from people on my own, but I always do my best to reply to whoever talks to me. I love talking to people, but sometimes people shut the conversation down, and that can usually make me retreat from reaching out. Give me some time to warm up to things, and we'll laugh about memes and make inside jokes like we're childhood friends.
+ I'll probably only listen to Muse and Taylor Swift with you.
Unless I think of a really good indie band to listen to.
+ My three favorite albums of all time, in no order are:
-Trouble Will Find Me - The National
-Merriweather Post Pavilion - Animal Collective
-Red - Taylor Swift
+ I probably don't watch the same shows as you!
I've never watched This Is Us, Black Mirror, Parenthood, etc, and I don't plan to! I've watched half of the first season of Gilmore Girls before I stopped and it's been months since I turned it back on, so I'll probably have to re-re-rewatch it. I know. I've also watched maybe five episodes of Pretty Little Liars. Same thing with Gilmore Girls. Here's the thing you might be surprised about. I do NOT care about Stranger Things! I don't care about it! I've never watched it and I really honestly never will. However, great cast! I have a massive crush on Joe Keery, the kids are cute, and I love what MBB has been saying in the media!
Most of the shows I watch have pretty common factor. I watch Bones, NCIS, CSI, Castle, Grey's Anatomy, Doctor Who, and Anne with an E (I'm so excited for season two).
+ My favorite food is fruit.
I love all fruit, and my favorite are all the berries. Straw, rasp, blue, black, you name it, I like it. While my favorite food is fruit, I do also eat ice cream every single day and consider it a food group.
+ My favorite drink that isn't Cherry Coke is hot chocolate.
I will drink it even if it's 80 degrees outside. Plain chocolate is great, but I really love raspberry hot chocolate.
+ My favorite temple ever is the Newport Beach temple.
Honestly enough said. It's so pretty.
+ I've had paranormal experiences my whole life.
Let's talk about them sometime, and I'd love to hear yours if you have them!
+ My favorite smell is freshly washed sheets.
Seriously nothing like it.
Now that you're done reading this, we're automatically friends! Yay!
Also I'm pretty sure I'm going to be hitting you all with a new blog layout. It's long been time, and while I'll always have the file of this blog layout and the signature, the company that I bought the layout and custom signature from closed down late last year, and I'm in the market for a change. I'll be blogging about this later on this month (probably the next thing I post, really), but what I'm really in the market for is a change. I'll explain that also in the next post.
However, this post is going to be fun! Here are TEN things you need to know about me if you want to be friends with me.
+ I really love sports.
I'll probably watch any sport, but hot dang, do I love football, baseball, and football. Punters are my favorite players ever, be it college or NFL.
+ I might ghost on you, but I'll come back.
Sometimes I just drift off from people on my own, but I always do my best to reply to whoever talks to me. I love talking to people, but sometimes people shut the conversation down, and that can usually make me retreat from reaching out. Give me some time to warm up to things, and we'll laugh about memes and make inside jokes like we're childhood friends.
+ I'll probably only listen to Muse and Taylor Swift with you.
Unless I think of a really good indie band to listen to.
+ My three favorite albums of all time, in no order are:
-Trouble Will Find Me - The National
-Merriweather Post Pavilion - Animal Collective
-Red - Taylor Swift
+ I probably don't watch the same shows as you!
I've never watched This Is Us, Black Mirror, Parenthood, etc, and I don't plan to! I've watched half of the first season of Gilmore Girls before I stopped and it's been months since I turned it back on, so I'll probably have to re-re-rewatch it. I know. I've also watched maybe five episodes of Pretty Little Liars. Same thing with Gilmore Girls. Here's the thing you might be surprised about. I do NOT care about Stranger Things! I don't care about it! I've never watched it and I really honestly never will. However, great cast! I have a massive crush on Joe Keery, the kids are cute, and I love what MBB has been saying in the media!
Most of the shows I watch have pretty common factor. I watch Bones, NCIS, CSI, Castle, Grey's Anatomy, Doctor Who, and Anne with an E (I'm so excited for season two).
+ My favorite food is fruit.
I love all fruit, and my favorite are all the berries. Straw, rasp, blue, black, you name it, I like it. While my favorite food is fruit, I do also eat ice cream every single day and consider it a food group.
+ My favorite drink that isn't Cherry Coke is hot chocolate.
I will drink it even if it's 80 degrees outside. Plain chocolate is great, but I really love raspberry hot chocolate.
+ My favorite temple ever is the Newport Beach temple.
Honestly enough said. It's so pretty.
+ I've had paranormal experiences my whole life.
Let's talk about them sometime, and I'd love to hear yours if you have them!
+ My favorite smell is freshly washed sheets.
Seriously nothing like it.
Now that you're done reading this, we're automatically friends! Yay!
Friday, January 12, 2018
It's been a hot flippin MINUTE since I made a playlist post, and we're up in here talking about music and my favorite songs that I've been listening to not just in January, but the last couple months in general. I have an interesting music taste and I'll listen and like pretty much anything, from country to Disney to screamo to alt/rock. In which alt/rock, indie/folk, and lo-fi hip hop are definitely my favorite genres.
So here you go! I don't have links to them, but you can find all of these on Spotify at the very least. I use Spotify the most, and I definitely prefer it over Apple Music or the music I have on iTunes, or Soundcloud, or whatever people use these days.
Boyfriend - Best Coast
Bug - Wavves
The Way Life Goes (ft Oh Wonder) - Lil Uzi Vert
The Start Of Something - Voxtrot
Drag - Day Wave
Like or Like Like - Miniature Tigers
Menswear - The 1975
watch - Billie Eilish
Baby You're Out - Mac DeMarco
Up We Go - Lights
Anchor - Novo Amor
Annie - A R I Z O N A
I Don't Mind - Twerps
Tears & Laughter - Tall Tree 6ft Man
Set Free - Katie Gray
Sit Next to Me - Foster The People
12:51 - The Strokes
Finnerödja - Smoosh (now called Chaos Chaos)
Black Wax - Dananananaykroyd
There you go! Happy listening! Not listed is every Taylor Swift album, but assume they're in there as well.
So here you go! I don't have links to them, but you can find all of these on Spotify at the very least. I use Spotify the most, and I definitely prefer it over Apple Music or the music I have on iTunes, or Soundcloud, or whatever people use these days.
Boyfriend - Best Coast
Bug - Wavves
The Way Life Goes (ft Oh Wonder) - Lil Uzi Vert
The Start Of Something - Voxtrot
Drag - Day Wave
Like or Like Like - Miniature Tigers
Menswear - The 1975
watch - Billie Eilish
Baby You're Out - Mac DeMarco
Up We Go - Lights
Anchor - Novo Amor
Annie - A R I Z O N A
I Don't Mind - Twerps
Tears & Laughter - Tall Tree 6ft Man
Set Free - Katie Gray
Sit Next to Me - Foster The People
12:51 - The Strokes
Finnerödja - Smoosh (now called Chaos Chaos)
Black Wax - Dananananaykroyd
There you go! Happy listening! Not listed is every Taylor Swift album, but assume they're in there as well.
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